when i grow up

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 02:58:52 GMT

i haven't updated in so long, so i figured i would to pass some time. i've been kinda sorta a little busy lately with friends and school and family ect, but it's been all good. can't complain much. this past month has been an up and down time with friends. i've met some really great people, while leaving behind others that i thought i cared about. school is pretty dandy, cant complain about that either. i'm actually realizing that drama isn't worth the trouble, and doing well in school will be better then having a bunch of friends and impressing people.. in the long run atleast. i have been trying to figure out who really cares for me and who is just there for the ride, and i think i know my friends pretty well. in the past few months or since i've last updated, i can say i've grown up a lot.

i have realized that some people will be asses and most of them won't stop to say sorry, so get over it. apparently a lot of people are selfish these days. it's okay, i respect there desision to screw themselves over and become something they shouldn't be. i also respect the fact that girls now a days enjoy spending more money on purses then trying to help the world in some way, even though i disagree 110%. maybe i've changed a little too much for my own good? maybe i need to chill a tad? it's okay, i'm okay, my life is basically hope i pictured it would be when i was little.. or how i wished it would be.

okay, well.. i lied a little. i wished that my relationship with my parents would be a little better. and i wish i could be more beautiful and think that i am worth someones attention.. but it's okay, because i enjoy who i am and all my qualities. i guess this update is supposed to inform you of how i am doing and everything so, i'm trying to do that best i can. i have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, and to me he is my best friend. we are not like half the couples out there. we have nerdy conversations, we have logical conversations, and we have amazing love between us that no one could ever change. he means so much to me, and i only want him to be happy. Will isn't just a "sex partner" and he's not just a boy toy.. i really do need him, because he's there for me, and that's what i need right now. and that's what i want to need forever. maybe i need him too much.. but it's all okay, because we love each other and really understand that it isn't about the sexual aspect, it's more about the love, bestfriend, wonderfulness aspect. it'll be TWO YEARS on april fourth. i'm actually really excited for this one. i can now go up to everyone who said we were nothing and shove it in their face that we're still together and haven't faught or anything during our relationship. wow, amazing.

anyways, i guess i can make this as long as i want to right? i mean, there's no real limit on a livejournal entry. i guess my main priorities in my life at the moment, and making sure i keep God in my life, being there for my parents, loving Will as much as humanly possible, and being there for the friends that need me. i don't have a select "group" of friends right now.. and it's great. i enjoy having a variety of people who i can talk with and stuff instead of the same group. i miss Kristin a lot. it's been over 2 months i think. me and Evan were making a tally thing on her tc desk of how many days she's been gone, but after christmas we lost track. it's hard lossing one of your best friends and seeing them go to another school, and not really talking to them much anymore. evan is probably my best friend at school because he's just such an amazing guy and i enjoy having a best friend that isn't girl. for once in my life, it feels great having a guy to talk to that isn't my dad or my boyfriend. then i have court, who is amazing. i love being there for her, and helping her through everything. although the age difference is crappy.. it's all okay. i love them.

i've started to realize that i shouldn't take things so seriously, especially in this time in my life. of course.. i need to do A LOT better in school, just so i can surely get into the college of my choice, but after this quarter i'm not settling for less then all A's. i really think that life is only going to get harder, and this is nothing. so why not take advantage of this time in our lives now? i vote yes to living happy.

i love you more than anything Will 4/4/05
sincerly to everyone who reads this, Jenna

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 11:26:33 GMT

alright i know i haven't updated in a longgggg time. I've been busy with school and life, so for that i'm truely sorry. actually i'm not, because if i didn't have this thing in the first place, then i wouldn't feel so obligated to tell it how my life is going. =p anyways, the past weeks have been pretty okay. flatline. not really happy and not really sad. i've been talking to Courtney alot. she's actually really cool even though she's in 8th grade. i could care less what grade she's in, she's awesome. i love helping her and giving her adivce when she needs help with personal things. i guess i've always loved giving advice to people. so if ANYONE has problems, no matter how personal.. i'll help =]

umm.. last weekend i went to Autumnfest with Kristin, Evan, Will, and Majay. that was amazingly fun and gave me some relaxing time away from school. last week way probably the most hectic week with projects and tests and stuff. seriously, it was insane. but somehow i dealt. yeah, my week wasprojects, tests, and homework basically. but this week should be a little better with only two real days of school. =]

last night, when i should've been working on my projects and hw i, instead just relaxed. I talked to Will for an hour and a half and then called Justin and talked to him for about an hour. they are both hillarious. today should be pretty good. it's in my away message if you wanna know. i'll update in a few days.

<3 i love you so much Will

oh yeah, ps: I DIED MY HAIR.

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 14:35:10 GMT

okay, so i haven't updated in forever so i'll update now cause i want to and i have nothing better to do with my time. Schools going really good, better than what i expected. I finally have a group of friends that i love, and some that i'm on the verge of loving. :)) I think this year will be one of the best ones, but it will also probably be one of the most interesting. I can tell that theres going to be drama, love, hate, and worries throughout this new year, but i can deal. My classes are actually pretty great, and so are my lunches. I have almost all my lunches with Justin or Kristin or someone else thats wonderful, which is pretty cool. Kristin and Evan are my best friends at the start of this year, and hopefully they'll still be by the end. We had a dance Friday night, which was really fun but tiring. It was amazing being with Kristin the whole night and we tore it up. :)) It was fun hanging out with chels and kevin, and justin and his friends too. And then hanging out with Evan, Liana, Dom, Katie, and all those people too. That was by far the best dance ever, probably because there wasn't any drama attached. Dances are supposed to be fun, your supposed to act wild and crazy..not have to worry about what friend said this, and whos dancing with who. It's just a dance people. :)) Anyways, after it was over i was gunna go play lazertag with justin and kristin and evan and probably some of justins friends, but we didn't go. But still, lazertag or not, it was a really fun night. I missed my Will alot though, but it was good to just hang out with my friends and not worry about guys. I'm so glad i have my william james, he's another reason this year is going to be amazing. I love him so much. hehe :)) So yesturday was pretty great too. I woke up, still tired as hell and i little deff because of dnacing too close to the speakers the night before, but i managed. As the day went on i didn't feel to great cause i was sick, but Will still came over. And by the time he had to get dropped off, i felt a heck of a lot better. I'm pretty sure it was these vitamins i took in the morning that made me sick, but whatever. Will came over at 3 and we watched funny videos online.

heres the video we both loved so much :))

then we went to shopping with my parents at Shaws. hahaha that was such an amazing shopping trip to say the least. We say Elijaho-face there and they kept fighting over the carriage while i was trying to look for fucking stuff. lol BOYS. Anyways, me and Will were talking about how much Elijah loves him, and it's true, Elijah is soo in love with him. It's so cute. Anyways, then we went home and carried bags upstairs. We dropped waters everywhere and they fell down the stairs. hahaha Anyways, then we hung out with the kids and played board games and xbox and nintendo DS. Will is amazing with the little ones. :)) After the Stretego we ate dinner, which is always crazy with my family. Then we played more games after dinner and by the time we finished making up our own version of scrabble, it was time for will to go homee. So we took him home and then drove back here and i went online for a while and talked to some people. Then i eventually went to bed. You don't need to know about my morning, i'll tell you some other time. I'd add pictures, but i really don't feel like it now. Maybe another time i'm bored. :)) I'll update later maybe?
<3 i love you so so so so so much Will

-Jenna

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 17:22:36 GMT

Well Will left for New Yorkk this morning. He has to go to his brothers graduation party and hang with relatives. I'm gunna miss him, but i'm gunna get to see him tomarrow afternoon. =] I got my hair done today. I needed to get it done before schoooool. I MIGHTY LOVE IT. I have bangs again..kinda..lol. I took some pictures and they came out horrible but oh well. I wish i was one of those "photogenic all the time" people. I'm not. =] Oh well again. hehe, i'm gunna go shopping now with my mom. And then we're gunna go look at some houses. I'm suprizingly excited for school to begin. New teachers (most of them), new possiblities, more freedom, new classes. This year shall be the best year. =] So I guess i'll try and update later. loves. kiddos. friends. whatever. leave comments and tell me what you think of the doooo =]]]]

I love you more than anything Will
Sincerly yours, JENNNAAAHH

Haha.. that was a week ago :))
<33

Yeah, theres my new look.
You'll all see it better in school =]]

Nothing =]

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 21:28:09 GMT

Alrighty, so i'm gunna update because i know people are actually going to read this. Uhhmm.. i didn't really do anything today. I basically just hung around the house and talked to Will. i love him more than anything in the entire world. He makes me laugh and smile. And i love how i can be myself with him. We laugh when we say stupid things and we act insane. I LOVE IT. He's my hero.<3

Anyways, uhhmm here's a picture =]
ENJOY <3210

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 16:16:00 GMT

You and me
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible
It's destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalculable
Insufferable
But for the last time
You're everything that I want and ask for
You're all that I'd dreamed
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your love
Protected and the lover of
A pure soul and beautiful you
Don't understand
Don't feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies
Your home is here
Within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your love
And for the first time
I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
You're mine forever now
Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for
Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for
Who wouldn't be the one you love

comments?
<3 i love you so much Will

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 17:31:36 GMT

IT'S RAINING.
i'm updating! yeah, the first time in about umm.. well a long time. My summer is going pretty damn great so far. =] This is probably the best summer i've ever had because i finally have all my friends sorted out. I finally know who i'm best friends with, who i'm kinda best friends with, who i would like to become better friends with, and who i want to become friends with. I'm not going to explain all the people who fit into these categories, but i'm happy with where everyone is. Of course i'd like to hang out more with SOME people. And i'd like to meet new friends. But these categories fit the people. I love talking to new people and i've met alot of really great new friends already that i plan to hang out with before the summer is donee. Some of my new friends are just wonderful. Like Andrew, Mikki, Chris, Nicole.. i love them. Anyways, umm my summer has been really great because my family-life is wonderful. I've finally organized family time and Will time. I hated not being with my family as much as i used to so i split the time in half. Yes, this summer has been extremely great because i have Will. He's always there to support me and make me laugh and i couldn't ask for anyone better. It's wierd because we're at this stage where we are best friends. We just love each other so much, and instead of just kissing and being all on top of each other like some people are, we just hang out. It's amazing, because when we're hanging out we make stupid jokes and act stupid. We're so comfortable around each other, and i love that. Oh yeah, while i wasn't updating i made these slideshows which make me smile. I was going to end this update with my slideshows but idk how to put them on here.. once i find out how, i'll show you guys! =D

slideshow page

I love you more than anything Will
RAWR. sldgosgirao, GOODDAY

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:43:59 GMT

I really am not in the mood to update
So i'll just share something i wrote
enjoy..or dont. I don't really care. =)

A brick wall of hearts,
That will never be seen.
A memory of thoughts,
Turned to broken dreams.
A love for centuries,
No longer seems keen.
In the eyes of a lover,
Colored in the seems.

A lovely red flower,
Growing a fate.
A never ending story,
Never told you ones face.
A boundary, A battlefield,
Seen for young hate.
The touch of a lover,
A little too late.

♥

It's not much
& it's not wonderful
But it counts in my heart
GOOD DAY♥
i love you more than anything Will

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 02:45:32 GMT

OTAY OTAY..
so i don't have much to explain about the past week or so, because i really don't remember that far back. lol So i guess i'll start at Tuesday.
06/04. Woke up at 6:30. Helped my parents clean up the yard and the house. Helped my dad set up the speakers on the deck outside. Helped my mom get some fooding ready. Then i got ready a little bit and downloaded music until people got here. MAJOORRR FUNNN. I won't tell you what happend, because then i'd have to kill you. haha jk, but so many things happend that i'd be going on forever. I braided Dan's hair. =p lol it came out so skaterboy-ish which was pretty funny. And umm... then i basically hung out around the pool, until i went home with Dan. I slept over him house with Vanessa and Justin(that red boy..lol) which was funn. That was seriously the best night ever. Spend most of it on the phone with Will while watching DIRTY JOBS with Dan and Justin. woah.. sooo hillarious. "HE'S POOPING A CHICKEN!" lmao. funny stuff. Then i spent a little while online. And me, Vanessa, Dan, Justin, Paul, and Jameal hung out a while. Then once a lot of people went to bed, i went upstairs and watched Dave Chappelle until 11 or so. Then i went to bed. =)
06/05. Woke up and had breakfast with everyone. Then watched TV while Paul and Jameal went to the dentist. Justin left. So Dan, Vanessa, and I hung out all day and waited for the brothers to get home. =p After that my dad came and picked me up. I went home and had some pizza. Then basically talked to Will the whole night. =]
06/06. Got up around 9-ish. Called Will. Got ready some. Went to Will's house from 1-5. One word.. MAGICAL. =] Came home around 5 and had some food finally cause i didn't eat food all day. Relaxed and read a book the whole night. Yelled at people for fireworks at 11 at night.
06/07. Got up early so i could talk to Evan about plans. Got ready and talked on the phone. Evan walked to my house, and then we drove to Lincoln Mall. We hung around there for a while doing random stuff..lol We got our movie tickets. And then we went to the theater and waited for Meredith. =) After she came we went and walked around the mall. Then we decided we were hungry, so we went to get some food at Papa Ginos. Then we finally went into the theater and got our seats. But even before we sat down, we happend to see Ms. Katie Barnhart! lol And her little bro of course! Which was freakin hillarious. lol And then we watched the POTC2 which turned out to be freakin fantastic. lol Such a great movieeeee!!!!!!!!! Then my parents picked Evan. Meredith, and I up at Starbucks cause we walked there to get coffeeee. Then after we dropped them both off at home, i came home and relaxed. I even managed to make spme plans for the weekend. I can't wait until Thursday! ME, KRISTIN, EVAN, AND JUSTIN ARE GOING TO SEE POTC2 AGAIN!!!! haha.. thats gunna be hillarious. They are all like my friends of the summer, everyone i mentioned, lol. Anyways idk what else is planned for this week/end. Will's coming over Sunday and we're probably going to go play b-ball. =]
Plans monday,tuesday,wednesday,friday anyone?
<3 i love you so much Will 4/4/05

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 02:38:09 GMT

Otay otay, i figured i'd update..

I guess the past few days have been pretty freakin wonderful =]

I spent Thurdsday around Providence with Elijah and my dad. We went to the zoo for a couple hours. Then we went shopping and out to a few stores. =D hehehehe

Me & Elijah =D

Elijah-face =p

MONKEY!

FLAMINGO!

Picture of the wonderfully beautiful city of Providence

Hehe.. providence mall. Thought this was wicked cool! =D

Random building yo =]
After i got home i went outside and waited for Evan to get there. Then Elijah, Evan, and hung out in the pool until 5 or so =)

Me on the phone outside.. i dont really like this pic, but o well =0

haha.. this one made me smile =p

I spent Friday with my Majay. It was really great because i haven't seen her in a wicked long time and she's been my friend since the beginning of forever so i dont wanna loose touch. She picked me up at 3:00. We went back to her place, and hung out for a while. Played The Urbs on gamecube which was pretty funn. =) Then we all got in the car and her dad drove us to Providence so we could get on the bus to Foxwoods. I sat with majay in the very back and U-Jay sat in front of us.. it was so cooool. After we got to Foxwoods (45 minutes or so later) we went to the buffet and got some food. Then Charley went to go play the slots, while U-Jay, majay, and I walked around and went to the arcade. =D So many hillarious times.

Me and Majay =D

The Urbs yo

haha.. i love her

THE BUS =D

Us on the busssss

U-Jay and Majay at Foxwoods =]

U-Jay: Hey jenna come here
Me: What? *walks over*
U-Jay: how to you play this game?
Me: You have to put the coin in and try to get it in the slot above the dump truck and iyou get 5 tickets for every coin that falls off.
U-Jay: Really??!? *humps the machine as tockets fall*
Jenna: hahahaha
*Alarm goes off*
Ujay: OH SHIT!?!
LMAO.. omg way too funny.

Then Majay and I rode the simulator rollorcoster/jet plane thing. It was so hillarious. You get to control the jet one while your inside, but we kinda didn't know what the hell we were doing. lmao Then after we left the arcade we rode the elevators. hahaha that was hillarious. U-Jay was laughing so much. =p When we first got in there we pressed the P2 button and then before the doors closed, an old lady came in and was like "P2!!". hahaha And then all the floors looked EXACTLY the same. hahaha. Then Majay was yelling at me for pressing all the buttons. Then two Asians came in and were like "Wow your going every where." haha and we were all laughing the whole time. =p And then we took two of the picture things in the booths which was funny because those things deff. are not built for three people! lol

Oh boy, i love them. But anyways, at 12:45 we met up with Charlie and took the bus back to Providence. U-Jay and Majay we're basically asleep on the bus, while i was wicked hyper cause i had two coffees. and an energy drink. lol But after we got to providence we drove home. It was soo late (or early) so we went to bed almost right away. Then in the morning we got up early. U-Jay got dropped off at work, and Charlie took Majy and I out for breakfast. =D Then i went back home and got "fully" ready. lol

After i finished getting ready, i called Will and talked to him on the phone while i cleaned up a bit. Then he came over and we watched Stealing Harvard. Which is soo hillarious btw. And after that we went to my parents friend Lezlie's house for her daughter Lauren's graduation party. Pretty funn! Will and I sat on the floor and hung out/ talked most of the time. Then we ate some food, and played with this little ball thing we found. lol It was raining terribly so we couldn't go in the pool. And i didn't feel like going outside just to get wet so we stayed inside. Pretty greattt. Then we played some ping-pong. Against each other, and then against my dad. lol And then we went back to my house at like seven and hung out some more. At eight we brought him home and i came home and did some major relaxing. And then i called it a night. =)

I make wierd faces..
but thats okay because I love this kid =D

Sunday (yesturday) I woke up early and talked to Will on the phone for a while, while he packed for Maineee. After i talked to him I went shoping with my Mom and my aunt. =D It was pretty funn because they are so hillarious. We we're in the driveway talking about the place we should go to first because my little cousin Elijah needed a cup for baseball, and my Aunt was like "hmm.. how about Dick's Sporting Goods?" And my mom was like "yeah that would be ironic" hahaha i love them x 456892376. Anyways, while i was there i talked to Will on my cell phone. Then we took a ride to look at houses. =) After i got home i got ready for yet another party. Fun fun fun. Then i came home and talked to Will on the phone. Anyways, that was the end of my night. =]

Will left this morning for Maine. Sad yet happy. I'm glad he gets to go on vacation because he deserves it for being such a great guy and all. I'm not gunna hold him back from having a great time. =) Of course i shall miss him. And he did promise to call me EVERY night no matter what. =) So i guess i dont have much to worry about. Anyways, i wen to Katie's house today which was greattttttt! She is always to much fun fun fun. hehehe We hung out the whole day and did basically nothing which was nice. Had some pizza. Drowned a snake. And i got crowned a night! What a surprise? lol We took mucho pictures which i still need to download onto the PC!! Then katie finally grew her grass =p haha Anyways it was wicked fun and i love her more than life. yo. =D Then i came home and took a little nap. I had a humungo headache dudee! Then Will called to say he loved me and we talked for about a half hour. Even though he's calling me again tonight to say goodnight, it was wonderful. After that i came online and talked to some people, checked some things, and downloaded music. Downloaded some old school rockkkkkk!! haha.. not really too much old school lol just kinda old. But still wonderful!

So right now i'm just hanging around.
Probably gunna go read.
Now that my fingers hurt from typing so much.
Sorry journal, i tired you out yo.
I'll add pics of Katie & I tomorrow!
Mucho lovo =D
<3 i love you Will

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 23:59:17 GMT

DEAR JOURNAL,

Today/Tonight, Tomorrow, Friday =D

TODAY/TONIGHT:
1. Outside with Evan and Elijah
2. Phone and relaxing after they leave
3. Online a little more
4. Bed

TOMORROW:
1. Waking up, Getting ready
2. Will's house from 12-5 or so
3. Back here
4. Outside, Pool
5. Relaxing, Phone, Bed

FRIDAY:
1. Waking up, Getting ready
2. Hanging out with that boy Justin maybe?
3. Foxwoods! with Majay and her familia later!
4. Sleeping over her house!=D

I'll be able to update again on Saturday.
This is turning out to be the best summer.
I finally got my hair done,
and i love it nomatter what anyone else says.
I'm best friends with the greatest people
who actually wanna hang out with me
as much as i want to hang out with them.
I have my Will, who is just amazing.
And is always there for me
when i need to talk or something.
I'm forgeting all my past troubles
from this point on.
And i'm just having so much fun!
Idk why i feel so happy this summer?
Usually im upset because i miss my friends,
but been almost a week,
and it's amazing ly spendiferic.
Yeah, journal, just made up a word.
IDK, i guess i just felt like spilling my heart out for a minute.
Haven't really been able to do that in a while.
Hopefully i didn't come off as a little self-centered or anything there.
I just was telling you, journal, that this summer is amazing.
I feel so lucky. And im so appreciative,
To experience what i have in my lifetime.
And to be the person i currently am.
YEAH..
I guess thats it, i'll update Saturday possibly. =]
<3 i love you Will

qwiporhfauwiegioprgio
RAWR.. mr. journal

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 23:02:42 GMT

Told you i'd get my hair changed. =)
This is the new me.
I don't like this picture,
But OH WEELLLLL =D
♥

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 19:03:23 GMT

Figured i'd update because i'm bored
ust got home from shopping with my daddy.
umm.. heres what i did yesturday.
-I went to my grandparents house early
Walked to Majay's house
walked back to my grandparents
We hung out for a while with my familia
which was wicked amazing.
I haven't hung around with her in a while.
So it was pretty cool.
Then we dropped her off at home around 5
And i came home and talked to Will.
Then went outside
Then in the pool
And then i came back upstairs
and talked to him for the rest of the night almost.
Then i went online
and then Evan-the-man called and we talked for a while.
And now i just got home from shopping
2572835 people IMed me while i was away this morning.
lol it was amazing.
Half told me thanks for my pictures of the party.
The other half were random.
lol
Anyways i'm gunna go take a shower
and straighten my hair
cause im getting it didd tomorrow! =]
All blonde-blonde with black tips
and shorter-ish.
=D
Can't wait.
I'll update a little later on.
But here are my plans for the week kindaaa...

Today: Chill around the house
Go outside and stuff
Even though it's 485781 degreees.
Maybe hanging with Evan?
Tomorrow: Can't go to the AFI concert sadly
because i found out about it too late.
And joey (that retarded child i call my friend) gets to go.
Anyways, getting my hair done at 12.
Then coming home and chillingggg outt.
Probably hanging out with Joey.
Wednesday: Will's house from 3-lateeeee.
And some pool/hanging outside before that.
Thursday: NOTHING! CALL FOR PLANS!
Friday: JUSTINN TIMEE!
haha.. Justin wanted to hang out
so probably hanging with him the whole day. =D

And after that.. im freeeeee
Summer is wonderful
=D i'll update whenever.
Gunna go shill with Evan on the phone
and then take a shower
And then talk to Will on the phone
and then do whatever i want. =)
<3 i love you so much Willlllll

fjkwiefhuiofe
(please don't try to sound that out Justin..lol)
RAWR.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 02:18:17 GMT

My day
1. Softball practice
2. got my dad an XM radio
for Father's Day/b-day
3. When to the gym to work out
4. THEN GABBY'S SURPRISE PARTY!

I actually just got home for Gabby's surprise party!
Which was hella amazing.
SOO MUCH FUN.
Took so many pictures =)
But, im tired from the day,
So i'll make this short.
I didn't count all the people there..
But here's a list =D

Gabby
Meredith
Me
Jeff
Dan
Nick
Nate
Natasha
Dave
Russell
Ian
Maressa
Derek
Connor
Shayna
Kristin
Sean
And that animal is the forest =D

Anyways, it was wonderful.
I'll update tomorrow with pics
If i can.

Tomorrow -

Well, today was a great day. Sunny and beautiful.
But unfortunately im covered in bug spray.
So i need to go take a shower.
And then go to bed.
<3 i love my Will more than anything in the world

gwoengioeg
RAWR.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 20:40:22 GMT

I was bored so i figured i'd make that.. if you want me to make you one, let me know =]
Here are some pictures i took the past few weeks or whateverrr.

Take any pictures and i'll get violent
Please tell me first before you steal my art.
This is my pride and joy,
And i don't like it being taken away.
So please be nice.
If you guys leave comments
I'll even add more later. =)
<3 i love you Will 4/4/05

SO TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK =]
wrherhjektulukcfvs bye
RAWR.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 14:26:12 GMT

SUMMER
wjothyehgfuiwerg
RAWR.

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 22:11:11 GMT

Okay so today was the last day of school. Pretty freakin fantastic. English & Biology exams were easy even though i didn't study as much as i should. Got to spend time with friends. Got to give my love Katie some massively large hugs. =) Because i love her. Got to take a massive amount of pictures which was fun. Well, i can't really say I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL SUMMER anymore, because it's here. =D I'm so glad too. This summer is going to be different. Can't wait for the parties and maybe Six Flags! Not so much "new friends", just new experiences, new views on life. Ahh yepp. =) I'm getting my hair dyed Tuesday. I'm going to Connecticut to get it cut/styled/done by this amazing gay guy who does professional hair. WOOT. I cannot wait. I'm basically letting him do w/e he thinks is gunna look good, but i'm dying it blonde and getting black tips. Shorter too. Idk what style yet, but hopefully it doesn't look like shit. lol Even if it does, oh well, it's the change i need. Well, yeah, i'll update somtime during this wonderful summer ahead. Way too soon i'll be telling you, my livejournal friend, that summer is almost over. That'll be sad. But lets not think that far into the future just yet. <3 i love you Will =D

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RAWR.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 22:13:03 GMT

OMG i so can't wait for this summer..
NEW FRIENDS,
OUR BAND,
TIME TO CHILL,
PARTIES,
DIEING MY HAIR,
GETTING MY NOSE PEIRCED,
PERSONAL TRAINOR,
MY SIX FLAGS PARTY,
MY SECOND ENTIRE SUMMER WITH WILL,
AND MANY CHANGES.
I so can't wait for this, because it's gunna be the best summer ever.
1. I get to meet alot of new friends, because Joey has alot of parties with his friends. He's only 17 so the kids there won't be wicked old. Plus i'm planning on meeting new people and starting actual "real" friendships with them.
2. Of course, no need to explain the band buisness. I'm either starting a band with Evan.. or if that doesn't work out, i can join Joey's band. He wanted me to join for a while, but i was wicked busy with school and life. But that would be sweet. He said i could even try vocals if i wanted. But, idk, my voice kinda sucks.
3. Finally get some time to just chill with friends and Will. My deck is finally built, so i'll be spending many hours outside by my pool and such. I might even have a pool party. But idk. Maybe i'll just relax on my own instead of have a party, because i need some extra ME time. =)
4. Like i said before, Joey always has parties so i'll probably go to a few of them. Is friends are so hillarious. Especially Ted with his freakin pig. hahaha Oh boy, you would've had to be there. =)
5. DIEING MY HAIR! WOOT! My mom said she might let me die my hair this summer. She might let me die it blonde and then die the bottom black. =) OMG.. i'd love her forever. I'd cut it like two inches too. How do you think it would look? Should I?
6. My mom's letting me get my nose pierced. My aunt might get her's done with me! hahaha =)
7. I have a personal trainer now, but during the summer i get to train with him for 2-3 hours a day Monday-Saturday. =) I'm kinda excited actually, because he is soo nice. Yeahhhhhhh.. it's a he. lol
8. SIX FLAGS PARTY! Yeah, i'm thinking about having a summer birthday party at Six Flags. =) Well either that or Canobee Lake Park. I'd rather have it at Six Flags though. It would be a birthday party for me and Will. =) His birthday is September 20th and mine is the 28th but i wanna have it during the summer. I was thinking of bringing maybe 4 people. Will, Kristin, Evan, and someone else. If you wanna go then tell me!
9. This will be my second entire summer with Will. I'm so excited. =) I can't believe that yesturday it made one year and two monthes for us. It's great! =) =) I loves himmmm.
10. Alrighty.. and the changes, well, that just explains itself. I wanna change and become someone different. It's not that i don't like myself now, it's just that i need to fully forget about issues with friends that i shouldn't be worrying about. And i shouldn't be trying to be friends with people who i know are only gunna screw me over in the end. It's my mission to find a group of REALLY great friends that i know i can count on when i need them. I want to change i guess.

This summer will be radd
END OF STORRYYY
<3 i love you so much Will =)

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 13:33:48 GMT

     Alright i felt like updating, because i haven't in a little while. Umm i'll start off by telling you yesturday. I woke up at 5:00 for some reason. IDK why.. but anyways i stayed up and stared at my ceiling until 6:00. I got ready & then went to school. It was finally Friday. I had the normal classes. The only really amazingly fun part of school was being with Kristin. OMG we have such greatt times together. Lets just put it this way, we were both sitting on the floor in the back of Brother Marty's Art class in the dark while the rest of the class was watching Monsters INC, taking pictures and videos of ourselves being retarded. =) Oh boy, good times. I love her.
     We got out at 1:30 from school cause of Prom. I came home and got into some real clothes. Evan called me so i talked to him for a while. Then i went to go get a facial done at this Spa in Providence. It was reallyy amazinggg. I felt bad though, because it cost more than $80. =0 But my parents said o well. Oh yeah, my MP3 player is dead. I cried. It won't trun back on and the little spinny thing is broken. IDK how it broke, but that was my life. ughh i'm so upset too, because i took that everywhere with me. Yeah, $160 gone. My parents said that we can send it back to the company and make them send us a new one. IDK as long as i have an MP3 player again. =) Anyways after the facial i went to run errands with my dad.
     Then i came home and called my lover Will. We talked for a little while and then i had dinner. Then i called him back around eight and we talked until nine. And then i went online and talked to some people. I fixed up my-my-my-myspace a little. (Sorry i had to do that) And then Evan called. So i talked to him until almost eleven. We talked for almost two hours. lol I love being able to talk to that kid because he makes me laugh so much. OMG is he hillarious. We watched Charlie the Unicorn. lmao And then we talked about people we hate(creampuff and whore hahahaha) and how people lie.
      Then after we got off the phone i played pokemon for a little bit. Yeah, thats right i'm resorting to pokemon. But seriously i almost beat the game in 4 days of playing. =) Today i'm spending the day with Will. It'll be fun. It always is when i'm with him. I love him more than anything. =) It's so awesume, because we sit on the phone talking to each other, and we're both playing pokemon. haha it's so perfect. =) And yesturday we we're talking about how we're kinda glad we don't go to the same school in a way, because we get to fully pay attention to ur friends in school and each other the rest of the time. Unlike other people who don't pay attention to their friends during school and out of school. I love how we both think the same way about things. It's so cool, because sometimes i'll say something completely random and he'll be thinking the same thing. t's so amazingggggg. And, I love him. I love him. I love him. =)

Anyways thats it for now, please pray for my MP3 player. That it finds life again. =)

WATCH THIS IT'S CHARLIE!

hahaha.. you have to see it dudee.

<3 i love you more than anything Will

Sat, 27 May 2006 12:02:29 GMT

Well yesturday was Mount day, and it was quite amazing if you ask me! So many great times. Seriously even if other people were in pissy moods i really could care less. They expect the world to stop for them just because they're down, but i wanna have fun. Dude, it was awesume though. ....THATS WHAT SHE SAID. hahaha sry i had to do it. I heard it while i was watching The Office yesturday. Ahh most hillarious show. Anyways, yesturday i i got to hang out with Eric alot which was funn. We got to talk and make jokes about people =p and it was funn. We stole soda from our TC. I hid it in my stash. =) I got to hang out with Evan, Eric, Dom, and Rachel during the Pep Rally which was fun. Dom is always great. I lovess her. And of course Rachel is awesume. And Evan is just... well, Evan. lol Anyways.. ummmm towards the end of Mount Day, Alegra, Eric, and I hung out. Which was funny. I got to say hi to 10th grade Justin. He came over to sit with me and Alegra. I gave him a fortune cookie from my stash. lol He still never told me what his fortune was, but i'm gunna find out. haha Anyways.. i didn't wanna go to the MSC dance because they're all the same and they get boring after a while. I don't really think they're worth the drama they cause any more. BUt, hey, thats just me. Well, i g2g download pictures! Then i'm going shopping. And then i have a softball game. WOOT. lol But, i'll update later or tomarrow. loves you =)

<3 i love you so much Will
<33 goodday

Wed, 24 May 2006 01:51:25 GMT

Well i figured i'd update because i haven't in a few days. Nothing huge happend over those few days, sothats why i didn't feel the need to update. I did spend all day (all most) with Will on Sunday which was great.
We went to the movies at 11 to go see Posiden with his parents and his brother. It was a pretty good movie. =) Then i went back to his house and we hung out until like 4:30. It was pretty fun, because we got to cuddle and talk about some things. I love knowing that, no matter what it is, i can talk to him about it and he'll understand. And i love knowing that i'm able to just listen to what he wants to tell me. It's so great. We have this connection when we talk.
It's amazzerrinngg.
I changed my background and picture again. =) I LOOOVEE IT. I'm listening to Shinedown right now. Haven't actually listened to their CD in about a month so i guess i'm due. hehehe
Mount day is Friday. And theres only tomarrow and Wednesday left of this week. WOOT. Still don't know if i'm going to the dance Friday, because they're all the same anyways. But anyways, i'll update in a few days.

i love you more than anything Will
<33 goodday

Fri, 19 May 2006 02:17:17 GMT

Well, today was actually really great. =) I woke up early, went to school, and then came home. [in-between that i had some hillarious class times with some of my favorite peolple. Especially in Bio. =p) Anyways, i came home and talked to Will on the phone. He's so sweet. =) Then we both had games. Unfortunately mine was in Connecticut. We ended up winning the game 7-2. Yeah, pretty awesume! I played short-stop most of the time. And Left field the rest. It was my first game in about 2 years, so yeahh. I got a walk, a strike out, and two hits, which is pretty good i guess. I stole a crap-load of bases too.. lol but.. ummmm.. thats it for now.. but i'll update tomarrow!

Leave some comments pleaseee!

<3i love you so much Will!

<33goodday

Wed, 17 May 2006 10:31:04 GMT

Okay kiddos, it's 6:21 in the morning and i'm getting ready to go to school. I wanted to give you a short update now because i don't know if i'll be able to update later on. Plus i gave you a longer update yesturday. Umm..I redid my background and crap. I like it. The picture in the background was taken by me. =) I took it at my grandfathers house a couple days ago. Maybe, if your all lucky, i can find out how to get my pictures on here so you can see my beautiful photography. =) But i guess thats for another day. Or possibly tonight if i have enough time! I think the rain has finally stopped. In one sence i'm glad it's gone because that means SUMMER WEATHER. But in another sence, i kinda miss it because it relaxed me. But o well, the rain doesn't last forever. Anyways, now it's 6:30 and i gotta go finish Math homework i didn't know i had! =o I'll try and update later.
<3 i love you more than anything Will 4/4/05

<33 goodday

Tue, 16 May 2006 20:16:14 GMT

I feel like voicing my opinion, so here it is for everyone to read. =)
Okay, well i felt like writing in this because i haven't in kinda a while. Idk what to write really, so i'll just start off by saying that this past week has given me mixed emotions. Last Monday started off a little rocky. Okay, horrible. I found out news about my little cousin Savannah, which was heartbreaking. She was murdered by some jerk off neighbor who thought that after 4 months of knowing her he could deside her fate. Yeah, i knew the week would be "up and down" after i that. ......but i guess everything happends for a reason right? Everyone has a fate. Everyone reaches there's at a different point in life, and that was hers.

Since that day, i think my mind woke up a little. Instead of fighting with people. Instead of talking shit about people you don't know. And instead of hurting people. You should life life to the fullest. I'm not saying not to pay attention to the little things, because somtimes those little things can turn into bigger things. I don't want people to think that im happy she's gone. But i'm just glad i got the chance to experience the loss of something great. She was such a bright, adorable, little girl, who loved the world. Who lived everyday with a smile. And who loved life as it was. And.. i don't know, i kind of look up to her. I wish i could be half as great a person as she was.

Well enough of the inspriational talk. I hung out with Will last weekend. It was fun. =) We watched Shrek and Their Eyes Were Watching God. Then we had pizza, and watched Spongebob. While we were watching Spongebob my dad was like.. "Why do you watch this? It's childish". Haha.. good joke daddy. We're still children. =) Will and I are so crazy. It's been a little more than a year and a month now and i couldn't be happier with him. He makes me smile and laugh like no one else could. It makes me so happy knowing i have him there whenever i need him. It's amazing, because we're so close to each other and we never fight. Seriously, i don't think i could ever fight with him, because I love him so much. We have so much fun together. Even though he doesn't go to MSC, what gets me through the week, is knowing i get to see him during the weekend. I don't know what i would do without him. I love him so much. I hate when people tell me "It'll never work out because your too young" or "Highschool isn't the place to fall in love". I'll choose when i want to love someone. I think he's the one that i want to be with forever. And, i really hope he is, because i can't picture myself with anyone else.

Anyways, nothing has really happend lately. Homework, Softball, Gym, the usual i guess. It's been a tad boring, but i can deal. My softball game for today was cancelled. Not like i don't mind. ;) It's only been raining for about 84 hours now. But oh well, i love rain. I love the sound it makes against your windows. It makes me so relaxed. Of course it messes up your hair, and makes you feel tired. But sometimes i like my hair a little messy..and i like feeling tired. =) I love the feeling of rain. I love the way the rain runs down your nose and your face. I love just sanding outside and letting myself get soaked. =) Holy crap, i guess im in a writing mood. =) I might go write a song. Or maybe just go curl up, watch the rain, and listen to Bob Marley. ...Yeah, that sounds good. Anyways i'll update tomarrow.

<33 Goodday

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 20:25:34 GMT

Song i wrote outside today
The point is, to everyone out there:

STOP TRYING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE
BE YOURSELF
DON'T PRETEND TO BE ANYTHING YOUR NOT.

Time is slowly running out,
but no one seems to care.
I walk around the city.
You try to steal the spotlight
But why would you dare?

Loneliness roams these streets,
It’s in every passing sound.
You can feel it in the air.
It’s not so much the pain,
It’s more of being let down.

The pain of consequence drowns you,
There’s no way around it.
All the guilt brings you to your knees,
But it’s only because you let it.

Stolen identities and hidden faces,
There all everyone seems to want to be.
Just be you, And I’ll be me.

Fading memories and long-lost lovers,
Which at the time seem so real.
The true is the past makes us whole,
And the future isn’t so near.

The love you have throughout a lifetime,
Really isn’t enough.
Your not suppose to fall out of line,
But the world has it’s own way,
Of encouraging you to give up.

You can’t have something you don’t have,
Unless you take it straight on.
And you can’t be in the spotlight,
Unless you feel in winds of regret.
You need to be yourself,
Let your actions speak louder than words.
You have to feel alive.
You need to be alive.

Not in a very good mood,
but oh well.
Will is in Florida on a trip.
I miss him alot.
I cried last night.
But that's okay,
i'm gunna go paint a picture.
<3 i love you so much Will